Thelastsunrise's Journals

So love isn't free

This is for Kalani.

I WILL love you till I find out there is no point in loving someone when they don't care anymore.

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So love isn't free.
But all I am desperately pleading to god
is to please give me that from you.
instead of your back.
i want a me and you.
I NEED a me and you
and if i can get that, then i promise you
You'd be my everything and I'd do anything for you.
I'm tryin to stop my wrongfullness towards you
but when i look at you all the pain from that day comes back
and i can't conrol myself.
but when i finally do.
Will you understand?
Will you please accept me again?

For all da big girls. lol

Big Girl(You are beautiful)- Mika

Big girl you are beautiful

Walks in to the room
Feels like a big balloon
I said hey girl you are beautiful
Diet coke and a pizza please
Diet coke im on my knees
Screaming, big girl you are beautiful

You take your skinny girl
I feel like im gonna die
Coz a real woman needs a (real man has why)
You take your girl and multiply about four
Now a whole lot of woman needs a whole lot more

(Chorus)
Get yourself to the butterfly lounge
Find yourself a big lady
Big boy come on around
And there be gonna do baby
No need to fantasize
Seen some worse in my (faces)
A water in the whole
With girls all around
Curves in the right places

big girl you are beautiful (x4)

Walks in to the room
Feels like a big balloon
I said hey girl you are beautiful
Diet coke and a pizza please
Diet coke im on my knees
Screaming, big girl you are beautiful

You take your girl and multiply about four
Now a whole lot of woman needs a whole lot more

(Repeat chorus)

big girl you are beautiful (x4)

(Repeat chorus)

big girl you are beautiful (x4)

(Repeat chorus)

Here in Your Arms- Hellogoodbye

this song actually got me going soft. lol =P

i like where we are,
when we drive, in your car
i like where we are.... here

cause our lips, can touch
and our cheeks, can brush
our lips can touch here

well you are the one the one that lies close to me
whisper's hello i miss you quite terribly
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now there's no place else i could be but here in your arms

i like where you sleep,
when you sleep, next to me.
i like where you sleep... here

cause our lips, can touch
and our cheeks, can brush
our lips can touch here

well you are the one the one that lies close to me
whisper's hello i miss you quite terribly
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now there's no place else i could be but here in your arms

our lips, can touch
our lips, can touch...here

you are the one the one that lies close to me
whisper's hello i miss you quite terribly
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now there's no place else i could be but here in your

you are the one the one that lies close to me
whisper's hello i miss you miss you
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now there's no place else i could be but here in your arms

here in your arms.
here in your arms.

The sweet Illusions from our Heart

My heart skips when our eyes meet

When our lips touched, I knew you

were the one

Getâ�¦.real

What's the difference between

Love and true love

Who proved love was real

Except for fairytales and movies?

So, why think something like that

Even exists just because

Titanic,

Tristan & Isolde,

Or Romeo & Juliet says so

Love is a powerful imagination,

A magnificent illusion

Love is one of the

Strongest feelings

Because it's the strongest

Feeling a person can imagine

Crushes are warnings

Before you lose

Your head

The cause of a heartbroken

Is love

Because of the thing you thought was real

Proved to be FAKE.

True Friend poem

I have a livejournal because I'm too lazy to type lol. I've been having lotsa trouble making up a real good poem. Yeah it's short. so what. blow me. lol. Here's one of them. It inspired me from the trouble in my friendship with one of my best friends Kayla. Because of a guy. GOD!! how stupid can we be!!! lol jj. This poem came to my head because I feel as if Kayla was that true friend that taught me something and "showed" me so much. And everyday it reminds me. Everyday.

True Friend

Friends are just people you enjoy to talk to and hang with
But true friends are not people, but a person
That teaches you a valuable lesson in life that will always be a reminder for you
Every single day in your life
And you are that person's true friend giving them back,
The same thing they gave you, but don't realize it.

You weren't a Pleasant dream At All

I will never forget you

Because you were the first guy that has ever made me feel so special

And being "friends" with you was a happiness I never had or ever felt. I'll never forget that

But now that you've hurt me so bad. Abandoned me. Left me miserable without any care

Just jealousy, because I finally see now the hint you've been trying to give me

You've chosen her to take my place.

What hurts me is that I feel the same connection we once had in the past between you and her

You obviously have more fun with her than you ever had with me

I'm sorry I don't play basetball or carry around one either

I'm sorry I'm not like her

I'm sorry I don't spend my time shooting or spiking a ball

I'm sorry I spend my time in the shade rather than in the sun

But you need to know that I did so much for you

I made sacrifices because i wanted to be with you so bad. I loved you that much. I knew what I was doing and I didn't care

But you didn't take the time, did you? To just stop and realize anything

So what happened? You got lazy all of a sudden

I'm just not worth it. You had your chances

I told you I had feelings for you. But you didn;t take it because of shame!

Why?

And I still loved you for that!

And I still loved you even though you're trying to ruin me!

I still love you

Travis, as far as I know it, no one will take your place for a long time

No other guy stands a chance

No other guy can have my love. Because I gave it all to you

And no other girl can really take my place. Because no other girl will ever love you like I did

They won't be able to explain why they "love" you. They won't do the things I did

I put you first above everything and everyone else. My best friends. People I known for years

And not for a month or 2. People that put their friends as most important

But no, you were far more important to me. Everything was about you and for you

I went to war with a friend that was like a sister to me, because of you

Go ahead and find another girl. But come running back to me

I know I'd take you in Travis. You even know that through my innocent easy eyes

Because I love you

Me and Travis. Travis and me. POSSIBLY Travis and me

this would be me and TravisTravis's passion and "love"
Look at how different we are. *note* these are just examples

Our hearts spaced away from each other. suckey. Trying to look for that connection we once had

this is what I really pray to happen. We could finally have each other's hearts. I would be happy and we could hold each other. Isn't this what we BOTH want

Puppy Love. I mean this is a cute picture.

Another poem of course

Another poem I made last night. You know, this is pretty much what I do now. BUT I can't think of good enough titles for my poems. oops

I need you to know I'd do anything just to be with you

I'd have my blood drip in front of you for you to see and understand

Shout "I love you" a mile away so you'd hear it

Grab you from the side and kiss you so you'd feel my need for you so badly

Take a beating to the head, so you'd know I would go through so much oain just to be with you

What will it take for us to be together!

What o I have to do

I'm loosing myself everyday

Because I'm craving for you more and more each day

Love and craziness is completely taking over me

Poem I made. Read only if you're in love/crushing on someone lol

Well on the weekend I really felt like writing a poem and heres what I came up with. I don't know when I write them I lose track and switch to another subject in my poems. well this one isn't really all that great but still yet people were touched by it anyway! Oh and there isn't a title.

Sometimes I feel like i'd do anything just to be with you
Put a gun on someone
My mind is clouded with the one thing that is now so important to me
You
I run and close the slam the door in your face
But when I turn back, a brick wall is blocking me
Love is not a lie, or evil
Not something created to break you apart
Love comes when you don't want it
And when you realize it, you have to fight to gain it, fight yourself
Love, is a portal, and once you enter it
it's a long way back home
I entered the portal 4 months ago
I don't even know who I am anymore
And now I feel like I can't trust the closest person to me because of this

A BIG question i can't really find the answer to

All right all right I'm doing better, waaaay better from Saturday and Tuesday. The only problem now is just that I can't go to fuckin sleep!! It's so irritating because Travis is the one keeping me up. I was dying to get freakin knocked out or something just to go to sleep! Frick that Imma go take some drowsy pills tonight! lol. Ughhh. I'm just glad that the week is going by quickly. I still need to get ready for Tuesday. Like my sis told me to just tell Travis Do you like me?. But that is just tooo......I don't know, wrong I guess. Ugh but then again I was killing myself thinking really hard if me and Travis should be together in a relationship. I mean I want too no kid at all but WE'RE 2 DIFFERENT PEOPLE. Both people in 2 different worlds, backgrounds, pesonalities, so much different from each other. that's the other problem. You can't be with someone but not have anything much in common. I don't know I'm going to try and start my project today. get my mind off him. I have to so badly.